Bliss
I’m on my knees,
“Kiss” – London After Midnight
I beg your mercy,
My soul is my loss,
I’m well hung from your cross.
This picture captures an intimate moment between my Master and me. I love our closeness and the way we are drawn to each other. This image really showcases that well. It also represents our dynamic. I am on my back, he is on his knees, ready to control my movements. The marks on my arm were created by him, during another play time. My fingers are embracing his manhood, wanting to give him pleasure, wanting to make him feel good. My head is in a dangerous place, one wrong movement and his balls will be lowered onto my face. Humiliation is never far. My nipple is hard and ready for his pinches and pulls. And my face? I have an expression of total bliss. I am where I belong. I am where I want to be. This image depicts the beauty of our dynamics and our relationship. Bliss.
However much I enjoy what this picture describes, there is another reason why I am posting this particularly today. An old friend from Sweden reached out to me, on Instagram. She found my NSFW account and decided to send me a message. Her message said: Seriously, stop putting yourself out like that on the internet. I choked, And I didn’t reply. I still haven’t. I felt hurt, and judged. I don’t care what random people think of me, but those who are my friends (or used to be anyway?)? I want them to like me, and to be supportive of me,
A million thoughts went through my head. Why shouldn’t I post sexy or sinful pictures of myself online? I can’t come up with a valid reason. Other, more judgmental people, might. I am too fat so I should be hiding under a rock. I am fat, and I know it. I don’t like my body, but I am allowed to take space in the public sphere just as much as anyone else. It is embarrassing. Posting those pictures doesn’t make me feel embarrassed or ashamed and assuming my emotions is invalid. It is porn. There is kind of a blurry line between porn and erotic pictures. I wouldn’t describe my pictures as porn. I would describe them as body positive and sexy. But even if they were porn, why are you shaming sex workers? Mm? A decent woman doesn’t do it. I don’t care what a decent woman is supposed to do or not to do. I am not a decent woman, and I am pretty proud of that too. It is desperate. Desperate for attention? Sure. Desperately naughty? Sometimes!
I never replied to her message. But I hate that it got stuck in my head and it made me feel bad. So with this picture I am taking back my space. This picture has a cock and tits in it. I am posting it online, with my face showing. And I am proud of it. Judge me all you want, I won’t stop being sex positive. You hear me?
loud clear and glad You are frtee to express your erotic side
f those who don’t view it as Your freedom and your thoughts
Never stop being YOU
hugs and its not porn but sensual erotica
love this pic
Thank you for your encouraging words, Sindee <3
An intimate moment perfectly captured. You definitely look blissed out.
Thanks 😀 <3
This is a wonderful, beautiful photo. And bravo for standing up for your right to post images of yourself. Your body, your choice. And your images are in no way shameful. They are beautiful ?
Thank you so much! I guess some people have not arrived in the 21st century yet, their loss 😛
A beautiful image and the words describing your dynamic resonate. Well done for standing up for what you know is right for you. Sad that people feel the need to judge xx
Thank you so much!
First of all, this is a stunning image! The moment I saw it, there at the top of your post, I thought ‘WOW’. Then I read your words and it saddened me that someone you know would shame and judge you in such a way. Even if she doesn’t approve, she could at least first have asked why you do it, and gave you a chance to explain how empowering this is for you. I am sorry you had to go through this.
Rebel xox
Thank you so much, Marie! I think some people have limits of judgments and morals, and being sex-positive is a step too far for those people. I really appreciate your kind and wise words.
I loved this image, raw and sexy – interrupting sexy play almost. Your description of your state enhances that.
Then BooM! Those hateful words from a friend no less! I won’t have you second guessing yourself like this, I know that is your inner monologue you have answered and I’m glad you’ve got a counter answer for each of these questions. However, I wish these thoughts were not even in your head.
I love your positive images, sensual and confident, don’t let them be diluted by what connotation narrow minded people might put on your body or activities. I truly believe your boldness in the images and pieces you post empowers people. Please don’t stop or apologise for them.
Thank you so much for your superkind words, Posy! It is odd how one message can make us question everything that we do, and put a huge dent in our confidence, And I didn’t want someone else’s negativity allow that for me, so I went a step further and took a graphic picture like this, ha! I really appreciate your support and words, Posy!
OMG . . . this photo is so, SO sexy!
I think you should reply to your friend and tell her just how many people find strength, enjoyment and . . . FUN . . . from your posts AND such sexy, arousing photos as this !!!
Xxx – K
Thank you, K!
Your words are so very kind! I don’t think I will even engage with her about it all. I can’t force her to accept or respect my choices.
You are so beautiful and yes, you take up space and share sexy photos because you want to. I understand your reaction to the message but it’s really her issue to get over, not yours. Keep on sharing, there’s a whole world of pervs out here who enjoy seeing your posts <3
Thank you, Victoria! It definitely is her issue to get over and not mine. I just didn’t expect that kind of judgment from someone I considered a friend. Aye, we live and learn.
It is a beautiful photo. And so are you. Fuck those boring puritanical assholes. They are the insecure ones… projecting their own sad view of themselves onto others. Being sexual and sinful and naughty is a delightful thing, and anyone who disagrees is a fucking bore you don’t want to hang out with anyway. Onwards and upwards!!!!
Thank you so much TJ! You are so right, it is probably about projection. They feel uncomfortable about sex and themselves and they assume others do so as well. And when they see someone not fitting that picture, they lash out. I just didn’t expect it from a friend. I will deffo continue with what I am doing because it is freeing, empowering and makes me feel good!
Never stop listening to your heart. A dear friend once said that friends come into your life for a reason, a season or a lifetime. I never forgot it. That “friend” of yours sounds like the “season and reason” variety. The reason has more to do with you than her. ? Keep being yourself. Never stop. Xoxo
I’m so sorry that negativity happened to you, you don’t deserve it. But what an rebuttal post this is! You’re wonderful, I love your posts and fully support the Deviant Succubus you are! Hang in there.
Gosh, thank you so much for your kind and supportive words <3
Sometimes we have to let friends go – they don’t fit anymore – and that is ok because there will be others that come along that do 😉 x
I very much agree with you, May. And thank you, I am always very grateful for your lovely comments and support <3
This is quote frankly breath-taking. The way you look so blissed out, the connection between you in this moment is intoxicating.
I am sorry your friend was supportive. It makes me sad that people can be so judgemental and shaming when it comes to sex and bodies but I have learned that it says a lot more about them than it does about me…. or in this case you because you are a beautiful and delightfully sexual and sexy woman.
Mollyx
Thank you so much for saying that about my picture, Molly!
I agree with you, it is about them, and pushing their moral values or stereotypical views on beauty or decency on us. It just stings a bit when it comes from someone that you know well. Thank you for your kind words, so appreciate it!
Very erotic photo! So sad an old ‘friend’ tried to make you question your freedom of expression.
Thank you <3
OMG – you have beautifully captured one of my most favourite positions to be in!! It is raw, powerful and sexy AF!!
Is it porn?? Is it erotic?? That is 100% down to the poster to decide! Your “friend” seems to need to take a leaf outta your book. They seem to be extremely judgmental person who needs to get a grip!
And I agree with you – your images are sexy, body positive and show the world your beautiful, loving relationship <3 x
Thank you! I guess some people can’t avoid pushing their judgment on those that are not following mainstream ideas on what is appropriate. “Friend”, indeed. Thanks for your kind words <3
Beautiful photo! And bravo to you for standing firm! You are gorgeous!
Thank you!
Very happy you posted this and you didn’t stop or give in to others who don’t understand.
Thank you! <3
I get an erection every time I see this photo.
As for your friend, that’s her opinion, it’s yours and Master’s that counts.
Ha, thanks 😀