Gothy Boobs and Clamped Nipples

I bought these nipple clamps some weeks ago. I like them, although they hurt quite a bit. They definitely can’t be the first prop to use during play. I need to be in subspace first, to be warmed up, so I can handle these without trying to seriously hurt the person who just tried to put them on me! The whimpering state I am in here is quite obvious.

I am not big on boob pictures of myself. They need to be taken from the right angle, with the right kind of filters, and more often than not, I abandon the boob idea for a butt idea. My butt just looks so much better! I have always had big saggy, droopy boobs with huge areolas. They are not close together, and no push-up bra in the world can give me a beautiful cleavage. I would never ever leave my house without a bra on. And most definitely, I would never show them in public. There are times when I look at myself in the mirror, I see my boobs, and I gag. Literally gag. I find them to be the most unattractive part of myself. And if I ever have the money (yeah, as if …), I will get a boob job.

But until then, I have no other choice but to learn to live with the mess I am born with. I am trying to be more body positive, and to accept my body for what it is. Just yesterday I went to the pool of our apartment building, in a swimsuit. All the pretty young people were staring at me and I felt quite exposed. Still, it was a step.

I am not fishing for compliments, by the way! This post was more for reflection. I love my hair in this picture, and my make-up! And I love the nipple clamps. I don’t dislike everything about myself! But my boobs. I definitely need to learn how to love them.

More sexy pictures of me.